// RESPONSIBILITY//
Concerning my weight i have maybe dropped a kg or two, i weigh normally something around 56-58kg, (i am 170cm tall) 55kg if I don't feel well or have no time to rest which was the case when I got Leon, that full first year I think i weight around 54kg, not because I was on a diet of any form, I'm actually never on a diet, but mainly because it was SO intensive with two small ones, feeding them and you know, just everyday that I hardly had time to eat and whatever I ate was burnet straight away. My breast got completely flat and my body was very thin and all the bones was visible on my decollate, not so flattering after all.
I would love to have skinnier and not to mention longer legs, but I love to enjoy life too much and have no time to do so much exercise at this stage of life so it is what it is. I eat something about every third hour, mainly to control my insulin since it impacts my migraine and attacks strongly. My last meal (normally a bowl of cereals or a glas of milk with a toast) is around 9-10pm since I can't fall asleep if I am the slight hungry.
I try to do simple activities when I am home and have some spare minutes, I try to always chose the escalator when I can and in my work I stand a lot. But taking care of two small boys means very little of sitting down, it's always a lot to do.
My original body typs is one that can loose weight quite simple and easy, if I just eat slightly less then what I do or avoid my weekly sweets and chocolate, I'll lose a kg easy. With age I've realized that it will be harder and I try to see my body as a temple, I want it strong and healthy.
To keep the body not to loose and saggy I do Pilates. When I had time to do it two times per week my body was absolutely amazing, athletic, firm - everything I like but at the moment it's impossible so I do it one time per week.
If I would chose I'd probably be at 56kg all the time, that's when I like it the most but Ive learnt not to complain, the body is amazing as long as it works and since I often have a lot of pain, I'm happy everyday it's well and kind towards me.
But overall I'm satisfied, we have to be else it would take up too much time of my day. I truly think that if you're unhappy with your body you should really try to find a realistic and balanced path of exercise and food intake that makes you achieve something you are proud of.
The body represents us, who you are, your lifestyle choices and I'f you are not happy with it - then you really should do something about it. Not diets, or starvations but a healthy life way where you change forever and maybe eat less of the bad things but realize that you can eat a lot of the ingrediens that are good in the long run for you. Myself I can't do gym and things that binds me up, I need my freedom since I don't want the same things week by week, thats why power walks, Pilates and things I can do at home suits me best. Then I can do it when I feel like it and have motivation and if I don't, I remind myself how much positive energy I get back from it. We have a responsibility towards ourselves and I believe in that strongly. I know know I want to look at and feel in 20 years and also know that it won't come completely for free.
For me a woman who feels comfortable in her body is beautiful but I do feel like being over weight and abusing the main thing that keeps you alive is less good and I often wonder what it takes to make some humans just let go and stop caring.
I need my body to function with me, to help me along the way of life, to be a true partner and so I need to give it what I can in soul food (forest walks, meditation, mindfulness, positive soul talk, listing to my intuition and signs along the way), real food and movements to give it all necessary ingredients to do so.
Lately stress is what I've become allergic too and my body is physically showing me that it had enough so obviously, with these clear signals I need to respect it and make a change. No one else will, I have to claim it for something of difference to take place.
We have a strong responsibility towards ourselves. To feel and listen to what we need in our heart and flesh, whats lacking and whats too much of. No one will ever come and rescue us, only you can be the controller of what's going on for your own wellbeing. And only you can decide how you want to look like with a realistic eye of course where you can eat and move in a healthy way without being to harsh and forget to live and enjoy life.
I'd like to end this little information post to say that obviously I chose the best pictures for this blog and my insta (stina_auer). Trust me there are som horrible pictures also where I hate my legs for example and pictures that are less flattering, we're all humans.
Please feel free to ask any questions or if something is unclear!